i miss you

I miss you... do you miss me?

Of cos not. would you even think about me? Would it ever be anything good?

guess not.

Once again, i gave out my heart to the wrong man again. A man that will never in a million years look back, and still here I am sometimes thinking and missing you. Love can be so silly sometimes.

but it's okay. Now I am better, now I am healing. when my heartbeats for you stop beating, it is when I have found myself beating for a better cause.


Good bye, love, Good bye friend. cos I won't want to see you in a million years again.

As much as I want to.


I make myself silly, but it is okay. I would never regret daring to love.


God, heal my heart for the right man. tank Q :)

Back from Batam...

Hmmm.... I went with a friend.

But now tired to blog need to edit the tons of pictures I took like a typical tourist.


Wait for the update!

New part time jobs!

Dear little cupcakes,

I had another good day again today.

I was woken up by a ex-collegue's call to a lunch date we made yesterday and I took my time to get prepare before getting out of house with a little tinge of happiness perfume.


Lunch was good enough, she gets to eat at the Maxwell market she do not usually eat in and I get to have a little girlie chat with her.

Thereafter, went down for my annual checkup with my doctor. We had a little good chat about some updates. She is not feeling well, but her attitude and energy was shown through her.

Dissappointingly, I waited for the friend of mine to knock off from 5.30pm to 6.30pm. And well, he went off by himself in after ten minutes he could not find me because "he was in a hurry".

Amazingly, unlike before I was not upset. I refuse to be and it is really because he is simply not worth it. I have made a little decision to disown him as a friend since that was his last chance to disregard anyone for that matter a fact.

Well, it is really simple I forgive him and I WILL conveniently forget him totally too. Haha.

That being said, a closure is done and I am happy.


There is also an re-draft of the week's planning, cos busy Claudius, always busy wants to exchange currency by himself. I was left in the lurch again but at least he tried his best and thought the best so I would not fault.

It is really the attitude my friends. Attitude. I guess that is what you wanted me to have in the very beginning isn't it? Well, good news I have seek to live a redeem person from it all free to do what is rightfully to be done now. - for long I plan.

Beautiful Beautiful day, True Yoga called today and wanted to give me free concession to go for two weeks of their activities and programmes.

I mean why not? Since I am taking a short short break I guess a little exercise will do great in lifting my spirit even higher and of cause to lift those butterfly wings girl!

Conship? As cautious as I would, two weeks is just enough. Of cause, they don't have to know that do they? haha.

So there goes, Pilate maybe one of the first in the list since it is in my yearly resolution for quite some years now.

I can finally tick that box this year! Muahahaha.....

I'll plan to grab that pass on Friday, then go for intensive Pilate and other interesting classes from Monday onwards. Sounds good? Sounds goood...

And what is even amazing is that, the lady that spoke to me knows that I am looking for job and wanted to recommend me to her boss for the telemarketing part-time job she is performing now as well. Second part-time job in two days!

Later dinner with Ah Ma, had a pretty good chat and spreaded some love and the joy of me going for Batam trip this weekend to them. Guess what, I was blessed $50 from Ah ma, and $100 from Big Aunt (Jon's mum) for my Batam trip!!!! Yeah....Put it into the travelling fund wohoo~...

God is goood....He really provides. Abundantly! *\^_^/* weeee...

还是爱之情最伟大

今天，刮了一息余风有惊无险的度过了一切。

当你和你关心的人起争执，闹得天崩地裂感情像被摇晃的建筑垮下来时你会如何是好？


这时的你，不嚷破喉咙不罢休；不比过胜负不甘心。
最后，最伤心的还是自己。

伤心当初为什么那么傻，给别人机会伤害自己。可是却不晓得认同别人伤害行为做受害者的人就是自己。

伤心为什么付出的却的不到因有回报对待。 可是却不记得当初付出时知足的喜悦。


人，当受伤时唯一能感受到的眼前能看得到的，就只有别人欠你的还有别人对不起你的。
多伤感的画面啊！难道别人为你付出过的为你做过的即使是很小的事你都变成过眼云烟了吗？

心病还需心药医。


想好过点，就想想他曾经为你做过的事情。
难放手时，想想曾经一起走过的岁月和感情。
想释放时，原来只有原谅才能获得从新的自由心情。
想忘记时，才知道原来爱就是那么一回事。


说穿了，“吵” 就只不过是“口” 应该 “少”一点。

“伤”， 不就是两个像“人”的在动“力”。

没道理为“吵”，闹得口沫横飞。
也不可能只为了“伤”，继续舞刀舞枪的。
所有的不过跟可是，十年后都会变得可笑。


到最后眼前心疼的人儿，和自己一样受伤。
就只怕你已经没办法察觉，来不及挽救了。


原来爱就是学习释怀伤痛，从新拥抱珍惜的人儿。
所有的感慨，却竟是从局外者的清醒。

NEW job opportunities!

I think God is GOooOod!


Just received a call today from Jobstreet regarding a position as a customer service person for them.

Today has been a great day, everything went pretty well.

As you know, I went to collect my renewed passport from ICA. I was instructed by mail that I am suppose to bring the NRIC & current passport for collection, BUT I forgot to bring that darn slip of paper that has a little barcode to verify my application for a Q-number.

Thank God for their flexibility, I was able to scan my NRIC bar-code for Q-No. instead.


one thank you hit to God. *teng*


After getting the Q-No., lo and behold the multitudes of waves of human waiting for their turn in the sea of congregation.

I looked at the queue number's jumping speed, Twenty numbers away and I have only 30 minutes to spare in order not be late for lunch date with Joreen. I made a little prayer, and hope for the best that the numbers will jump quickly.

5 seconds after my hoping, I did happened! the numbers jumped like thrice the speed and suddenly my number appeared. I was bewildered cause the previous number was 7450 and mine is 7463. Then I remember the pre-appointment was taken into the consideration.

Oh man, that is really fantastic! within about just 10-15 minutes I collected my passport with the beautiful I/C photo inside was almost leaping out of the congested place.
i do not know about you, but that practically a pretty proven miracle of the little prayer I answered.


All thanks to that, I was 15 minutes early for the lunch date, and I get to be the nagging wife to Joreen for a Good change finally. hahaha.

From then things went pretty good. Coming back to the jobstreet's call, I managed to sent a pretty organized resume with some help and I think with some divine magic I am going to get the job!!! How exciting. Hohoho...

God is good. always. when you trust in Him.



SPA people called as well, but instead of that bad service person, another person by the name of June called. She is really nice, and she reminded me about the Batam trip I signed up for and she did assured that the room changes I requested for has been performed as well. Mmm... Thank you June! haha like she will see this.

However, she did mentioned something about a couple room for the spa treatment. I think she got the wrong idea. Hmmm. Anyway, I rather have over-passionate service than bad service!

Good day. :) Thank you Jesus.

How long can I last...

You must be thinking how long can I last with this daily blogging right...

Well, you know it won't, once I start getting busy again. haha. There you go I broke your dream.

But I mean seriously, who reads this blog anyway right? I can count the people reading this darn thing within my ten fingers alright.

Well, unless if you are some random people that happen to know the only secret of how to get to here from FRIENDSTER link... Well HI! But I guess there is nothing much for you to get out of here. SO, I prophesy you will click away in about ten seconds time.

Anyway, Like the previous post, I am trying very hard to plan some activities with my available time now.

It is exhilarating to able to do everything I am doing now after such such a long time. Unfortunately, and sadly I realise that the time I have neglected my friends seems to get back to me. Some friends are actually not very keen that you actually contacted them after so long.

Yes, yes... my fault. Should have dropped an sms once in awhile, keep you in contact or did some thing like that.

BUT if there is any chance to salvage myself from the court of law & judgement, just let me proclaimed that I have been OBSESSED with work to the extent of no Human Contact other than the people I irritate everyday. Unless you have been irritated, you belong to people that was safe & sound not affected from this deficiency.

No, it is not really an very valid excuse enough but I guess I will have to get my hands dirty and do the salvaging work to manifest my repentence once again from this offense of the island-loner syndrome.


Well, there are lots of work to be done and I can not hang around waiting for them to come back can I?

Upcoming Week..

Monday:

1) Collect renewed Passport
2)Visit Ex-Company to collect back my belonging
3) Meet CMY for cheese cake making ingredients purchasing

Tuesday:

1) Medial Checkup
2) Dinner with Ah Ma's cooking

Wednesday:

1) Exchange Currency(maybe)
2) Meet Huili for Lunch
3) Meet Shuzhen for tea break
4) Meet Benny for dinner (maybe)


Thursday:

1) Cheese cake making session with CMY
2) Send out resumes


Friday:

1) Preparation for Batam trip
2) Exchange currency


Saturday - Sunday:

AWAY to SPA & SHOPPING in BATAM!!!


As you can see, I am really getting some "work" before I go into a new job again. So if you are available to finally catch up together friends call me!! or I will call you...Muahaha!

Batam, my first tour trip!!

I have never flown on an aeroplane, and not so soon in the near future.

BUT, at least I am going overseas! (yes, Over the seas.)

By Ferry I will pass the Singapore waters, rage the waves of foreigner's sea towards my little adventure getaway from the urban life that I am now so tiresome of.

I has been quite a year, work has toiled my tired soul reduced to a longing spirit.

It will take some actual action, to revive and refind the inner self, the true soul & spirit that lives within this almost healthy body.

So what is more rewarding than a spa treatment away from all the buzzing cities in a serene & peaceful beach of Batam?

Even the though the package I have signed up for does not sound that great after reading some review (After I have made payment so what can I do right?), but I guess for the budget and ideas included in the package who is complaining?

Take a look:

Package A (Ocean View Package) includes:

2-way ferry tickets (Sin-Batam-Sin)
Meet & Greet services at Sekupang Ferry Terminal
Land transfer (Sekupang-Resort-Sekupang)
1 Night Accommodation at KTM Resort with Breakfast
90mins Ocean View Spa(foot bath, hydro bath & full body massage)
Batam City / Shopping Tour with local guide on 2nd Day
Seafood lunch on 2nd Day
http://www.batamspavilla.com/packages.html

Price: $108*

I mean base on the study of the review, alot of fishes has been "cheated" into the net.

The conditions of the resort is less than expectation if you are looking for a luxury kind. It is really the Kampong type.

But for me, I guess somewhere quiet is exactly what I need right now so I am not picky with the budget.

I just need to be away totally for awhile.....

Messed up

Before the glory of the fruits bears forth, choas & confusion is inevitable.

A messed up life is simply a reflection of the inner lostness hide within the soul, captured in the state of mind that is just but a stage of life right before you re-knowing a deeper understanding of yourself;

if you keep on walking on to find the answer.

I am back finally.

Here, again.

Felt like I have been to a very long vacation.

No, a very very long hitch hiking to difficult places and some enchanted forest enlightenments.

Through the black pits of confusion & despair, bracing self with an strong armor created by your own bare hands; emerging out of them with a certain light if clarity of things once unseen.

Now, standing on the crossroad again, finding back my real self from all these toils & pain through this four months of "training".

It has been 3 days since my last view of sunlight, hiding from the world with discontent.

Now, the time to re-establish my life again with the right ingredients gotten from the tested fiery furnace and manifest into my own life the new Light that I have gotten within me.

Where shall start? Let the light guide me again...

Surviving and on the way to Success

Fruitfulness, I am successfully bearing fruits....Good fruits that will last.